I’ve made lists of things I could write about. I’ve researched titles, taglines, images, and structures. I’ve scribbled sentences in notebooks, crossed them out, tried again, and scribbled them out, too.

Because I want it to be perfect. No mistakes.

The perfect introduction to my new blog, to my self-publishing journey, and to me. Because if it’s perfect, maybe I’ll earn the title of Author and won’t feel like such an impostor.

Newsflash – it’s not going to be perfect.

And if I spend forever thinking about what I want to say, I might never get round to saying anything.

I’ll keep putting off publishing a blog post (or a book) until I’ve read yet another craft book, written another draft, learned something else incredibly important that I definitely shouldn’t publish until I know…

I should wait until all my ducks are in a nice, tidy row …

The trouble is, my ducks are definitely not in a row. In fact, I suspect they might be laughing at me for thinking they’d ever co-operate and line up neatly.

What I actually have is a chaos of ducks.

It’s not the official collective noun, but it feels accurate for where I am right now: with a lot to learn, a strong desire for perfection, and the growing realisation that perfect might not be possible.

So this is me embracing the chaos and pressing publish anyway.

This blog is where I’ll document the lessons learned, mistakes made, and what happens when I try to write through the chaos.

If you’d like to follow the journey, chaotic ducks and all, you’re very welcome here.

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